I died for you one time

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 21:00:45 GMT

Nothing ever goes the way we plan it to, but isn't that the whole point?

Sat, 09 May 2009 21:24:20 GMT

I can't believe you'd ask me that. Of course I don't believe in fate.

Across the country and nothing changes. I could be on the other side of the world, nothing would change. But California is beautiful...

i love you

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 18:44:27 GMT

You're so cool, you're so cool, you're so cool...

The bitch of living in your head

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 00:10:58 GMT

It's like just kiss some ass man, then you can screw em all.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 08:49:37 GMT

I don't know why it happened, but I wish it never did. I don't think I am ever going to be the same, or see anyone the same...

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 18:13:04 GMT

Am I the only one who thinks it's an impossible task? Why it don't last, is that too much to ask? Why do we love love when love seems to hate us? I'm not sure, but if we never try we'll never know. It's better to have loved than not to have loved at all. Not trying is worse than to stumble and fall, and if we do, I'd rather it be with you...

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 10:30:32 GMT

Normally I would be there right now. I should be there right now.
But I'm not. I'm here, about to go to bed.
I'm not as crazy as I used to be. I now make decisions based on what I need,
not what I want. It's disappointing. The fact that I'm disappointed scares me.
The fact I even care at all, scares me.

Time is going to pass, and so is everyone you think you have now.
You really have no one. How does that feel?

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 07:41:30 GMT

... and I am the best.

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 02:21:05 GMT

I can't wait til we're in Cali. hfgiowr3tfh34ytr67f

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 10:39:43 GMT

21.

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 09:44:27 GMT

How can you find someone better when you've already had the best?

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 01:01:05 GMT

The only person that would have had balls enough to have my back is the one I was quickest to write off, so I guess I deserve this much. I thought if I expected nothing from anyone, then I could never be disappointed. The truth is, even if you expect nothing, people will still manage to find a way to let you down. Everything I know now I've had to learn the hard way, and what I've learned is what disappoints me the most.

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 21:59:06 GMT

... and then I drink.

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 11:18:53 GMT

I am continually seeing significant signs of improvement in myself.

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 18:15:58 GMT

Gary and I are going skydiving for my birthday ahaha I'm going to shit myself.

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 06:35:44 GMT

I am still looking for the silver lining, but what the fuck ever.

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 01:05:29 GMT

"but it comes to a point
where if it gets down to the wire
and its either you or me thats gonna get hurt
well then guess what
you can burn as far as im concerned."

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 04:28:31 GMT

Sometimes I still catch myself making decisions simply to impress someone who isn't even there. And sometimes I wish I still had someone I cared enough about to try to impress. They'd be impressed.

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 07:17:39 GMT

never me. always them, always you, never me.

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 10:16:14 GMT

The weeks are flying by. I'm almost there. I have it all planned out. I calculate it over and over every single fucking day just to make sure it's all right, it's real and it's happening and it's happening soon. And it is. The remaining weights are being lifted. I have an awfully good feeling about 2009...

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 03:29:51 GMT

The only people with the brain capacity to understand are too busy destroying themselves.

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 08:46:18 GMT

That was all bullshit. Nearly everything I've said within this time frame has been bullshit. It was all part of this game I had mapped out in my head, but things like that never really work out how you'd imagine them to when nobody else even has any idea they're playing. I have too many things mapped out in my head, that is the problem, that is the answer, that is the only thing that will keep us together and infinately apart. I'm Heaven, you're Earth. But I guess everything will always come full circle if you want to think of it that way. I really wanted you. You were a foot away from me sitting in your computer chair. It was then, it was every other time, it was looking at someone at their worst, but seeing them as the best and I really, really wanted you.